Thursday, December 30, 2010

2011 here we come!!!

The year 2010 is coming to and end in a few days... WOW! another year gone! This year was a difficult one for me, in so many ways! I have fought many battles, I lost some but won many more... and the most important thing here is: I'm still standing and that only by the grace of God!
One thing I learn this year is that God will always be there for me! No matter what He will always love me... I don't understand Him, but I am only human and how can I a mere human understand a God that would lay down His life for me over 2000 years ago... 
There is this song that says "when He was on the cross I was on His mind" Can you comprehend this? How He knew you and me such a long time ago? This ever loving, ever patient, ever present God??? I can not!!! But I am grateful that He thought of me! He called me to live! When I had no more life in me... He said "LIVE", when I said God I can't, He said "I am here and with MY help you will!" My God, how can you love a wretched woman like me???? Tonight as I write this down I am so full of love for The One who died for me, The One who loved me before I loved Him, The One who knows how many hairs are on my head, the one who KNOWS my name! I will be forever grateful for His wonderful sacrifice and His AMAZING love! 
Lord Jesus, 
I love you so much, and I know that in my limited vocabulary I could never express the love I have for You, but never the less it's there! My desire for this coming year is that You will help me to do what you have call me to do! No more games and no more distractions, help me Lord to keep my eyes on you! And Lord if my life will end in this coming year, I pray that you will allow me to be a blessing to my church and do your will till no more time is left!
Senor Jesus, 
Te amo, con todo mi corazon yo quiero servirte.... no hay nada en este mundo que yo deceo mas que hacer Tu voluntad! Yo se que con Tu ayuda yo sere vencedora en Cristo... Tu palabra nos dice que "Todo lo puedo en Cristo, que nos fortaleze" dame fortaleza Senor para hacer Tu voluntad y no caer! En el nombre maravilloso de JESUS!

To all my friends... I love you very much and I can't wait to see what God will do through us in this coming year! Lets be ready for the work that the Lord has for us in 2011... 
**** For Ontario**** 
Calvary Apostolic Tabernacle, HERE WE GO... the Jordan has been crossed and there is no turning back!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Rolliepolllies & being in the hands of God

So the other nite I found a rolliepollie in my bathroom, and me being me,I picked it up.... Well if you know anything about rolliepollies they curl into a little ball when you pick them up... It is a way to protect themselves!
after about 30 seconds of being in the palm of my hand it started walking and I guess checking out my hand! lol it walked for a while on my palm and then it walked to the back of my hand I tried to turn my hand so it wouldn't fall but I wasn't able to do it in time.... so it fell of my hand... when it landed it automatically curled itself again and it layed like that for about a minute and then little by little it started to uncurled. but then because it was on its back it couldn't really go anywhere... I let it struggle for a little bit and then I took it and put it on the right side even though it tried to curl itself up AGAIN... lol
It stayed there for a little while until it felt confident and then little by little it started to move away...
and then it was gone...
 You might be thinking, "why is she writing all this about a rolliepollie?" well let me tell you why...
After all this happen it got me to thinking about our walk with God! When we first meat God we are shy and try to curl into a ball of protection cause we don't really know Him and we are afraid... but when we finally trust Him we are able to move within His hand and under His protection! but then sometimes we decide than we want to walk where we shouldn't and God try to keep us safe but we don't want to stay there and we fall away from Him.... and when we are on the ground God goes in and tries to pick us up and again we are afraid to go back to Him because of our failures and we try to go back to our little hiding ball of protection... But God is so good and He is patient with us, He gives us time to get up again and to get comfortable with His presence...  Isn't God AWESOME! I love Him soooo much and I thank Him everyday for being so good with this rolliepollie ( me )
When I fall He helps me get up and He waits and helps me feel comfortable and loved in His presence! Thank you Jesus!  

Wednesday, June 23, 2010


Distraction: 1) The state of being distracted.
                  2) Mental distress or derangement.
                  3) That which distracts, divides the attention, or prevents concentration.
                  4) That which amuses, entertains or diverts.
                  5) Division or disorder cause by dissension, tumult.
Synonyms of Distraction: madness, lunacy, insanity, craziness.
-Also a condition or state of mind in which the attention is diverted from an original focus or interest.
Dissension: 1) Strong disagrement; a contention or quarrel; discord.
Synonyms of Dissension: Strife or quarrel.
Tumult: Highly distressing agitation of mind or feelings; turbulent mental or emotional disturbance.
Synonyms of tumult: disorder, turbulance.
-Also agitation of the mind or emotions. 

When you become distracted with life and from the things that God wants you to do, basically what follows is CHAOS... Your mind becomes disturbed, there is disorder, division, tumult, madness, craziness, divertion, dissension, disagrement, really a total chaos of your mind and life...
In this CHAOS and confusion you can easily loose your way and it becomes very hard to make the right decisions for your life spiritual or other wise, and little by little and before you know whats happening you have gone from distraction to confusion to a HORRIBLE chaos that can easily keep your eyes AND ears close to the voice of God!
So in all the craziness that is going on in your mind you have a hard time hearing the voice of God, His voice becomes clouded and eventually unheard in all your confusions and all the "noise" in your life...
This is the life of a DISTRACTED person... With this you are confused, upset, LOST!!!
BUT even here in this place of confusion, distraction and craziness; what is really AMAZING is that throughout all this ever present even if just in the background of your crazy life... JESUS is still there!!!!
His everlasting MERCY is still there.... calling, calling, calling your name! HE DOES NOT GIVE UP! (for the calling of God is without repentance) even throughout all the chaos God will make a way! In all your confusion, God WILL come and help you out of that place of distraction!!!
CHAOS: A state of utter confusion and disorder...
-God is NOT a god of confusion and disorder, He has a plan for everything, there is no confusion in Him, there is no disorder in Him, There is NO chaos in Him!!!
BUT there is LOVE, PEACE, JOY, HAPPINESS, ETERNAL LIFE.... And it's ALL in Him...
Thank you JESUS... I love Him soooo much & I thank Him for this revelation!

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

A Beautiful Poem...

  I found this Poem online and I liked it...

A Prayer For purity

O Thou, to whose all-searching sight
The darkness shineth as the light,
Search, prove my heart; it pants for Thee;
O burst these bonds, and set it free!

Wash out its stains, refine its dross,
Nail my affections to the Cross;
Hallow each thought; let all within
Be clean, as thou, my Lord, art clean!
If in this darksome wild I stray,
Be Thou my Light, be Thou my Way;
No foes, no violence I fear,
No fraud, while Thou, my God art near.

When rising floods my soul o'erflow,
When sinks my heart in waves of woe,
Jesus, Thy timely aid impart,
And raise my head, and cheer my heart.

Savior, where'er Thy steps I see,
Dauntless, untired, I follow Thee;
O let They hand support me still,
And lead me to Thy holy hill!

If rough and thorny be the way,
My strength proportion to my day;
Till toil, and grief, and pain shall cease,
Were all is calm, and joy, and peace.

                                                                 by Nicolaus Ludwig von Zinzendorf  (1703-1791)

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

"The Unmarried Woman Careth for the Things of the Lord"

I Corinthians 7:32

But I would have you without carefulness. He that is unmarried careth for the things that belong to the Lord, how he may please the Lord:

1 Corinthians 7:34
There is difference [also] between a wife and a unmarried woman. The unmarried woman careth for the things of the Lord, that she may be holy both in body and in spirit: but she that is married careth for the things of the world, how she may please [her] husband.
There are some things that have been in my heart lately... (I guess thinking bout having a birthday coming up and all) has really made me think bout my age and my life until now...
This 2 scriptures, well the second one mostly has really been in my mind lately.... I think bout being single at my age.... let me tell you most of the time it does not matter at all! I am happy being single!
There is a mentality in Pentecost that there might be something wrong with you if you are not married in your early or mid 20s... Well I am well past my early 20s and here I am... SINGLE! yes single and happy! I won't deny that I have my days of sadness what single girl doesn't? and if any single girls out there say they don't get lonely... well YOUR lying!  lol
I had more of a hard time convincing my family than anyone else... I come from a family of 5 girls and 1 boy! ( I know that's a whole lot of kids... but I am Mexican!  lol) I am the youngest of them all.... and all my sisters (except for 1) had kids before they were 20... I was 5 when my oldest niece was born so by the time I was old enough to have kids I was done with them!!!   lol DON'T get me wrong I love kids... I just don't want any of my own! lol
but going back to the scripture.... I loved it, when I first found this scripture I Corinthians 7:34
I was like " YES! here it is... lol My answer... lol
I see some of the ladies in my church... wifes & mothers and they have it rough! I feel bad for some of them.... they have time for hardly anything besides taking care of their husband, children AND  home...
BUT I want to choose the better part!  I don't want to be like Martha and be too busy for God! I want to be more like Mary and take a seat at the feet of JESUS!
There is so much I can invest in the Kingdom of God! AND please don't misunderstand me, He has a work for all of us... I know that God can use you if you are married, but ME being single, have more time to dedicate it to the service of my Lord!
I don't mean to offend anybody...  but marriage is not for all of us...I want to care for the things that belong to the Lord, I want to be pleasing unto Him, I want my prayers to be ..."of a sweet savour unto the LORD:"!!!  Lev 2:2
In conclusion...
I am in love with a wonderful God... AND I guess I can say that I have been bethroed to the one I love the most... more than life itself... I am part of the bride of Christ... and I am waiting anxiously for the day when the Groom returns for me, His bride!
BUT until then.... I have LOTS work to do... We have been promised a great revival....
As Bro. Rivers has asked us during this time hes been preaching for us... "DO YOU BELIEVE THAT THE PROMISES OF GOD ARE TRUE???"
The Bible says in 2 Corinthians 1:20
For all the promises of God in him [are] yea, and in him Amen, unto the glory of God by us.

AND it also says in Numbers 23:19
God [is] not a man, that He should lie; neither the son of man, that He should repent: hath He said, and shall He not do [it]? or hath He spoken, and shall He not make it good?

Monday, May 3, 2010

Here we go again!

So here I am again lets see if I can keep up this time... lol
I am in love with a God that is good, that holds my life in His hands! A God that no matter what is always there for me... Let me tell you I have learn so much from Him in the last few months, and yet there is soooo much more to learn from Him! I guess really you never stop learning, His word is full of so much knowledge, it is just amazing! I am in a place in my life where all I can tell God is I want more, I am not satisfied anymore with the knowledge of past miracles and I am tired of hearing about the past experiences of the past generations of the people of God! I am ready for our miracles! It is time to take up the Cross... we need to claim our victory and then move on with the plan of God... So yes, I want more of Jesus... I want to see the miracles promised to our generation... I want to see the souls of our surrounding cities coming to God... I want to see the healing, the miracles, the new babes in Christ... I want to see the Chekinah glory of God.... I want to see the REVIVAL promised to Ontario come to pass... IT IS TIME... we need to make up our mind that we will allow God to use us for His glory, for His kingdom. It is Gods will that we see all this!
God wants to work with us and see us through, he wants to use us for His glory....
I mean what a privelage that the God of glory would take time to comune with us and let us feel His precense... allow us to work for Him!
I love God with all my heart and I know that He has great plans for His peple!!!!
In Jesus name let revival come to Ontario and our surrounding cities!
Thank You Jesus for a revelation of who You are and what your will is!!!